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Hi! So, this is my first blog ever. I'm sure it's evident in my writing.. But I'm really excited to start. I'll say though, good god. What maniac created HTML and CSS??? Like I just wanna talk. Actually, I'd like to have them put under watch because they must be a crazy sadist or something. I'm literally using all of my brain power to figure out how to put a Box on this dumb webpage... I have to keep reminding myself that it's all going to be worth it, plus being able to say I know how to design webpages would be cool! But still.... It's annoying. I mean really, how many times am I going to use the greater than, less than and equal to?? Also.. How am I meant to send a heart emoticon. like genuinely.. But, I'm having fun regardless.
I think I'm going to keep this page the same, even when I get better at the whole... stuff? Because it's a nice little reminder of where I started. Maybe I'll link it or 'href' it in a future blog when I get better at this. That'd be cool I reckon. Anyway, I'm going to get to off topic now.
I recently got back into this old game I used to play with my family called 'Elsword.' It's still fun, but in a different way now. Basically, everything is different from how I left it. There's more characters, theres more classes for the more characters, theres more skills for the different classes for the more characters. There's so much that's changed. And honestly, it makes me sad. I was kind of hoping that I could get on and feel like a middle schooler again, but now I feel like a college student revisiting an old game. Which, granted, thats what I am. But I was hoping for more than that.
It's not bad at all though, like I've made new friends and stuff. But it's never going to feel the way it did ten years ago. Back when me and my siblings had to share three computers between all of us, back when we had to get off devices at 5pm on sunday. Back when we used to watch Venturiantale's minecraft and gmod series, or Woofless hack busters. (Funny thing about that- Everyone always pronounced his name as Woof-fulls but with how it's spelled you'd think it'd be woof-less. Just a dumb side note that me and my siblings often talked about.) Back then I didn't really think about what I wanted to be in life, I just chose something and stuck with it. Back then my biggest fear was my one friend at school not showing up and leaving me to my own devices. Bonus fear points if we had to partner up in class that day. I miss the days where I used to look forward to getting home from school. Back then, I regretted decisions less, and my grandmother was still alive, and I never dabbled in skipping school. (Slippery slope- now I'm addiced to skipping classes-) I really miss then.
Y'know, I try to make myself happy for the future, but really all I dream of is the past. It's so hard having goals set in the future when all that you long for is in the past. I can't even focus on those dreams because I'm never looking forward at them, I'm always looking back. I don't know if that's a human thing or just a me thing, but its both sad and comforting. It's sad because its something I'll never get back, but its comforting because I know theres a me in the future right now that's longing for the me of the present. So I am trying to enjoy this time while I can, but it is so very hard.
Just cause I'm feeling like it~ Here are some old songs that remind me of my childhood. And dear future me, hope you enjoy and remember!
While compiling this list I came across some songs that remind me greatly of my grandmother. She passed away last year, and I would like to add them in her memory.
Okay, I'm gonna yap more now.
When I was younger, 18 was a huge age. I used to lie online and say I was 18 because I would that was soooo old. But now that I'm 18 I feel like I grossly overestimated the difference between an 18 year old and a full grown adult.
Eighteen is a hard age to be. Parents are expecting you to both be their child, but also be this blossoming adult that 'doesn't need their parents anymore.' It's really weird. It's sometimes hard to tell if my parents want me to grow up or not. Oh- that just reminded me of this quote~"
When I was young, I could remember anything, whether it happened or not... but soon I shall be so I cannot remember any... but the things that never happened.
To be honest... I know that's a Mark Twain quote, but I heard it from this game Oxenfree... If anyone knows it please please please (no Sabrina Carpenter) like text me or something.. er- well don't text, but like email me maybe? It's one of my favorite games. Ren is one of my absolute favorite characters of all time. Funnily, my top two favorite characters of ALL TIME are both from games lol. My husband is number one of course~! Saeyoung Choi. Then of course it's my amazing boyfriend Ren~!! And for third place... I'm not 100% sure. I wan't to say it's like maybe Kaminari from MHA but I really haven't seen the show like that. I loooove Kaminari but I feel it would be wrong to place him so high when I couldn't even sit to watch the show he's in. It's not that big of a deal though.
Also, random but I really need to figure out how to make the text not the entire size of the page. It's not aesthetic looking that way.
I'm going to end this blog now.. Is it blog or blog post? Like when I post just one 'section' of the blog is it just called a blog or a blog post. Cause 'I just blogged a blog on my blog' sounds weird but seems like technically it could be correct. Anyway yeah, I'm gonna go figure out how to make this more aesthetic or something, maybe do some drawing. Idk. Nice first post/blog! TTYL!
-Lamby